Well, I've yet to collect my thoughts. Perhaps in that morphine stupor clarity will arrive. I will say that the pain has been so great as to alter my life this year and, in some ways, make me wish I had done this a lot sooner. On the other hand, I think a major surgery that alters your body is something that you have to be able to wrap your head around and accept. In most cases, what is known provides a degree of comfort that the unknown cannot. What lies next must be taken on faith and hope, and faith and hope provide no comfort at all.